They seek her here, they seek her there. Who is this woman we call mummy?
Oh yes, that would be me. I am pretty much always here; caring, nurturing, nagging, cooking and all of the other things that come with this job we call parenting. Yet, if you were to glance at our many and varied family photos, you could be lead to thinking that there is someone missing. There are six people in our little family but there are only ever five in any of the photos. Every now and then, this mystery woman appears with different hair styles and clothes, but these are rare glimpses of the lesser spotted mummy.
You see, I am always the one behind the camera. I am happiest with that role in life. I want to photograph our family lives and I don’t want to be in the photos.
Well mainly because the person I see in the photos isn’t the same person that I see in the mirror. When I look in the mirror, I don’t particularly like the person looking back at me but when I see photos of myself, I don’t recognise myself and I would rather delete them than look at them again.
So that is why I hide behind the camera. But this worries me. I don’t want my children to look back at these precious memories of our family life and wonder why their mum wasn’t there. I want to be a part of those memories and those pictures, I want to come out from behind the camera and stop feeling ashamed of the way I look.
I blogged last week about my difficulties losing weight and although that post was a little tongue in cheek, I have tried and failed many diets and weight loss ideas over the years.
This year I want it to be different. I want to be able to lose some weight steadily and be able to see photos of myself without wanting to cry.
I know that this won’t happen overnight and I have already made a few positive changes that are making a difference and I am doing the #SlimFastChallenge for two weeks to try to give my weight loss a kickstart.
I have never tried Slim Fast before and I already like the fact that it is very organised and easy to follow. It is called the 3-2-1 diet plan which consists of 3 snacks which can be Slim Fast, your own snacks of 100 calories or less or fruit and vegetables, 2 Slim Fast shakes or bars and one healthy 600 cal meal (800 for men).
I started Monday and I have pretty much managed to stick to the plan and I am looking forward to see how I get on over the two weeks and I will report back at the end of it.
Mission ‘Get Mummy in the photos’ is definitely go.
I have been given a two week supply of Slim Fast Meal replacements and snacks for this challenge but I will give honest feedback about how I found the diet at the end of the two weeks.